I Got To Be Me

Posted on November 20th, 2008 by Sonni

Welcome back!

The last time the topic was burn out and how it can affect your dream. When I wrote that I had way too much stuff going on. I trimmed it down to a doable level and now the dreamchase is back on track. I most certainly was going down hill at a fast pace and my health was suffering for it so something had to go. Guess what that was? My job. I left my job and don’t have another one isn’t that scary in this day and age when the economy is BAD. Well, it was the thing I dreaded most and by far the most stressful, so after much forethought and prayer I opted to quit. It’s been great, I feel like a huge burden has been lifted off of me and I am able to pursue my seemingly impossible dream and actually focus a bit too.

My focus was way off I couldn’t think about anything for longer than 5 minutes. That’s one of the ways you know you’re headed down the road of imbalance; loss of focus. And typically I’m a focused person so that’s why I noticed that every day was all jumbled up into the next, nothing made sense and I didn’t care if it did or not. I’m sure you’ve gotten to the point that you don’t care about things like you used to and wondered why. However, you were so tired you dismissed those thoughts and went on aimlessly trying to fulfill responsibilities and going through the motions of daily life.

I for one don’t like just going through the motions I want purpose and meaning to each day. I want to be working toward my goals and making progress not acting like everything is Ok and it isn’t. Of course, I’m one of those what you see is what you get kind of people so I wear my soul on my sleeve, if I’m down it will be obvious. I’m absolutely no good at being phony, can’t do it, don’t want to do it, won’t do it. I got to be me like the old song says hmmm, I wonder if that song is on Youtube. Of course it is, check it out below, a classic by Sammy Davis Jr. with a nice little speech too.